Phase II

My friend, this world remains an esoteric mystery on the surface; only comprehended by the observer in the depth of his thoughts.

Reality has been bothering me in every aspect whether it’s a song by a lover or the averted gaze of my fellow companions. There’s always something that triggers my emotional state, leaves me speechless with provocative judgmental thoughts.

This is it.

For how long can I stretch?

For how long can I keep myself standing up when I clearly know that there is no ounce of strength in my body left.

Am I just pushing myself into the oblivion again?

For years I’ve trained myself to always keep a track of my emotions; situations that instigate my aggression or put me in a vulnerable state, must be avoided at all cost.

These complex emotions have tricked me into narrow passages that had led me down the void lane of false hope and kept me in dilemma.

But what can I do? Whom can I trust?

All I see masked faces everywhere. The trust that I had in some of my people, is now faded away. The innocent ones have fooled me and the wisest have already manipulated me.

They called me stubborn cause I repelled them. They failed in controlling me. And now, they’re standing afar, somewhere in the corner planning to gain my loyalty back by their superficial gestures.

And that’s when it becomes obvious to me- In the gaps of their false statements, there’s a sense of betrayal hidden in their silence. I find that such people are deceptive and are never reliable. So, I’ve kept myself distant and I’m patiently observing things.

As I’m a learner now and this world is an open book to me with different faces, different lives and different stories.

And so far, In this journey of life I’ve realised that this place will teach me many things and will prepare me for the worst. Some way or the other this world will challenge me.

And I, must always be ready.