Face off

Back to square one-

I’m meditating in close proximity of this perennial battle

Between the mind and the heart

Here the version of love is incomprehensible

All my senses have semantically lost the track

I’m expanding the horizon of my rational judgment

This is my constant dilemma

I’m recklessly reviving the links to my heart,

My mind is being extreme repulsive

In dragging this fear of my weary past

I’m left with crippling anxiety,

And a stimulating addiction for my mind’s empathy

Here emotional outbursts is not my forte,

And conversing them at the right time

Remains a utopian desire

This is my formidable reality

Everyday,

I can contemplate from the scrap

Little by little, inch by inch

I cannot pick a side

Neither the mind nor the heart; as separate entity

Can give me composure

But here I am,

Hoping to get the zest from my intellectual exposure

I’m cryptically imitating my mind’s journal

By drafting my thoughts as words

And putting all the pieces of this jagged puzzle together

Yet, I’ve become destitute in this era of lovers

But I cannot do this, I refute to choose

As my heart is a slow learner, who immaculates my spirit

While my mind still considers my heart, a fool

-Shubhangi Rawat